storybook

it isn’t a surprise if you don’t see me in church last weekend, i’ve had a short getaway from almost everything in KL. i was sick for about a week, and weren’t that fit to work or even focus my mind. and so, i decide to drive to somewhere not so far, to just have some solitary time with my Lord, and also freshen up my mind.

it was the last day for the singles’ retreat, i joined them for a day – two so i wasn’t as exhausted as they were there for all the activities. i was the 1st to arouse, and urged to go to the beach. was kinda freaked out by the quick waves, but as i walked alongside, i began to notice the beauty of the nature. it was dark, but it wasn’t that bad/scary.

i noticed my footsteps as i walked & prayed. have you read about this ‘parable of the footsteps by annonymous’ thing? it is kinda popularised as many people printed that on the bookmarks, notebooks, or even shared during sermons.

i don’t really fancy the overcommercialised concept, but i liked the simple story behind it. it illustrates a defeated/lonely/jaded/worried/discouraged/bitter person’s heartfelt feelings. eventually when the person looked back, he came to discovering… that the single set of footprint were actually God lifting & carrying & relieving his pain. little did he notice during his heart aches, God is always in the picture, being the one who heals the damage.

even when we think we’re strong, and being alright on our own, it became so easy for us to take God for granted.

caught the sunrise too, what a bliss.

i brought also my journal, for some time of reflection over the past 2 months. i read from the vulnerable words that were written, and giggled over my immaturity. however, it aches my heart as i recalled many unpleasant memories.

to certain struggles that contributes to defeat my will in trusting God, i let them go, and allow God to handle the aftercares. i trust God, and will not be bitter of any outcome that displeases me. afterall, surrenderness is dying to my old self and living with my renewed faith in God.